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Times flies..

It means almost 5 months since i updated my blog.. So many things has happen and unexpectedly is not a good news tat things are happening now. life is totally different.. days are all countable by now. hais. everything has been done but can nvr be undone anymore.. any ways is to face it .. everybody talks like is so easy.. but ya right.. sayings things is easy.. but u are not e one going through it. i'm wrong . i admit every single things but wat stand out to be is totally different. have anyone ever think and ask themselves whether how comes things will become like this ? ya . is my fault and i am facing it . but when can anyone ever understand my feeling, my thoughts? so far no one , nobody really understand me. all is saying and saying.. but have u all understand me? life is so stressful and pressure is always there.. everythings seem to me now is really hopeless and lifeless.. is really dark walking in e route all by myself.. i jus need someone to really talks to. but till now nobody is really there for me. all i wan is jus a simple life. a simple hope. someone which i can share with . by keeping things to myself is so stress. i know wat i am wrong with .. but anyone have ever asked me why? den sayings things that will hurt me down to my heart. i know enough i am a lowdown and useless person in this world. i try my best in doing all my things has anyone seen it be4? there isnt seriously. all i was getting was jus words and words with no meaning. As always u guys having a mindset which i always friends are impt? but seriously now i am saying tat to me nobody is able to let me trust and of cuz none impt. i only know tat is only acting .. pro actor around me . when times are well things is so smoothly till things pop out itself. but when times are bad .. where is does things u guys say be4? all u have to says is all my stupid fault. ya right . is my fault but have u all really given e trust e respect e looks of a person ? and also e words use on me.. u may things is jus some joke or jus some words.. but does u all know tat it will damage someone minds. leaving a place which i really doesnt care about pop out more and more . how i wish i am dead by now . seriously right now i am scare of nothing . cause i rather die before anyone does. what are friends? nobody can ever answer it to me . and serious wat are family? being there doesnt mean u trust , u respect. ya u got ur mind , thoughts but have u ever think will a person be stupid enough to wish to do things he doesnt want? before saying anything think? how would e person feels. for me .. it doesnt matters anymore any moment ahead.. everything for me now is hopeless.. darkside of e route. i tried to walk back . but in e end i still get e own treating.. if i were to really do something tat u guys dun like.. have u ever thought of u guys doing things i dun like? everything 100% thinking for themselves wit a motive behind. after so much things happen.. i'm like going back to e starting point again. is money really tat impt? being a person which he cant even have a little bit of trust den why should this person be left behind? if u really scare things to be lost den u can jus put it into a safe and lock it up . cant even imagine that as a person which is going to be 21 cant even compare to a machine. worse den a material.

hais.. all i need now is i wan a place to stay on . and there is still hope for me .. but it will nv be there nv once and not even twice cause everything u do with ur reasons and in e end is become i'm blaming u . hello.. cant u guys jus understand how much things has happen to me and i did try my best to turn and turn . but e outcome in e end is always e same. if u dun trust den dun talk to me .. and pls no more acting .. i am not stupid.. is jus tat i dun wanna say out . ya everyone has a better future den me among all. but have u even think of actually i myself is working hard. but nvr once i get wat i really hope to have..

it been 4 years i didnt really get e chance to celebrate my birthday.. so is also this year.. i have forgot about doing anything to it too. no point. i am jus a burden in this world which nobody will care even if i am dead down at e streets .. maybe u guys will be getting less trouble and more better life without me .. cause i am jus an extra god created .. shouldnt have carry on walking . shouldnt have walked back..

moodless to say anything anymore..

thanks for spending ur time to ready my post..

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whats are lifes? isn't lifes is for us to learn and strive things we wants? but why obstacles always stand in e way.. why does everyone have a problem tat can be solve ? money? good lifes? freedom? wat does things really mean to anyone of us? ya .. we humans does have happy and sadness but why we have this ? does it really worth ? jus couldnt find a answer to all this question.. maybe i am listening to too many emo songs right now tat why . but this songs really got lots of meaning in my past which it really makes me think and think ..

anyway back to todays.. todays was a not bad day for me .. lifes is still as normal. todays was my off days and i slept e whole morning till afternoon . so long didnt get so much rest liao.. ytd was doing my GREAT SINGAPORE SALES PROJECT .. guess wat i complete it in less den a half a day jus a few hours.. hahas.. :) happy with it .. ehhs.. so bring it down and show my worksmates . they was shock and i am really happy with it.. hahas.. den waited for somebody till nearly 9pm .. hahas.. wat a talks for tat somebody to go through .. hope tat somebody is blessed for exams tml .. giving u my support and hope u can get through it and dun worry .. :) smiles.. i believe u can so u can . :) den after tat when back home with tat somebody and friends plus liang and jiande.. bused to bukit panjang den guess wat out of e sudden our bladder all was going to burst . thanks to tat somebody who mention it .. hahas.. in e end farewell with them at e bus stop den me , liang and jiande walked and haunt around for toliet .. zzz.. den we was walking and walking till we find our special toliet and our bladder is really to e limit liao.. wat a joke .. :) but it was quite meaningful cause very long time didnt have time to spend with them to have lots of fun le.. :) tml still got work.. actually tml is an off day for me but was called to help them with e stock check .. so told them ok lo.. i will go help out .. zzz.. actually seriously i am really tired liao.. but is ok . hope i will be able to rest after tml . :) going slp soon .. so good nights and may god blessed all of us with a good lifes ahead. :)

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Blogs is going to be rusty soon ..

So long nv blog liao..

This few weeks was going through so many miracles like some i was on tv.. during 23/04 to 24/04 in all the news .. was so damn happy lo.. :) happy not because i when on tv.. happy because my effort to finish e final stages of e shop i was working in to e opening . everythings was so last min .. we took 2 days to packs e goods at warehouse . everyone was so tired out and stress out .. pressure was all around us.. But our team make it through to e last end without any regret and seriously we are fighting our best and work really hard willingly without any complain even through everyone is really tired.. still rmb i worked 17 hours to almost 3am then reach home jus to complete e stock check to e shop. but i am still happy i done it .. den after e 2 days at warehouse .. we got only one and a half day to stock up e goods for display, changes was all last min and everything is almost out of control but at least my team still know wat we are doing and finish every single things we are given .. hahas.. one and a half day to settle up a shop .. is totally impossible lo.. hahas.. but we done it because we got teamwork .. and we finish everything and here we present our shop "mark fairwhale" :)

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Today.. was e same old routine in works. but actually in fact i am not even tired of e daily routine but instead i felt more and more happy working den i use to be like a few months ago. maybe i really slack enough and now i should start fighting a place in this realistic ways of lifes. like i say before lifes are fated but since is fated but everything is still in control in our hand so maybe fates make u choose ways .. whether to go on giving myself e hard ways or e easy ways. For me i would rather choose e hard ways through cause i rather go through all e downs and hard times so i could learn and pick up wat more useful for myself in future .. :) anyway come across this songs and found it quite meaningful and e lyrics is like makes me feel tat actually if lifes for me is hard den let it be hard . relationship is hard den let it be.. sometime in future i would only wants to think to earn more money to take care of my's family . ya .. old thinking .. but its true . after so much things i gone through i have learn and know tat after all does things or mistake i made , them! My's family is always there for me .. supporting me even if they know is not going to be nice .. but they still shown me in a unique ways which i get to learn and know wat i really can or do in my's future . after so much years i wasted i think i shouldnt waste anymore times le.. i should plan wat i wan and really work on it and stop giving all those excuse which are damn hell nonsense.. maybe when i am young i am really childish .. childish in e way tat i and soft .. heart is too soft and too easily trust ppl around me and always let ppl makes use of myself which i found it sometime really foolish.. but maybe tats me .. being too helpful at times.. maybe i should stop doings so and stop letting ppl make use of my helpfulness. times passes .. till e end whos really impt to me? i really dunno . i only know my responsibility is to take good care of my parents which they taken good care of me during my last 20 years.. now is e times i should give myself some pressure and e desire to work on ! and give them have a happy and good lifes with no more worries on me.. maybe i should do this first den to think of anythings else bahs.. lifes is nv simple but when i face anything i will take it up and walk on telling myself is nothing compare to e past. " i when through e past and i'm still here walking on .. enduring e hardship e difficulties times" so tat will be nothing much to me.. :) hope everyone will get a good lifes toos.. :) cya!

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heys.. been so long since i last blogged . hahas.. currently been busy with a working life . hahas.. lazy to blog .. lifes has been better since i start working in a retail line.. alot of things for me to learn and catch up after two years of none working experience during my's national service .. was really use to life in army which i jus found out recently . and after all life right now has been more independant den i use to be in e army which i no need to think so much . hahas.. maybe use to slackness during tat time . but now i am all ready to fight and achieve a place in e retail line.. hopefully things will get better when e times goes by.. doing very well with ppl in my companys.. and get along pretty good .. hahas.. i believe and trust my own hands can still makes a different once again.. after i when through so much failure and downs times . I can only say now maybe i am much stronger compare to e past .. or should i say is my thinking after all. lifes isnt an end yet . there are still things for me to grab hold of it .. nobody will treasure but once ppl treasure it wont be there as needed as before.. but once it is gone ppl tend to care about it alot.. but for me is different cause without e makings of urself even if u were to treasure something .. wat can be e something be .. how would e something last with u .? ask myself alot of times.. nothing is not equals to nothing actually something u try but at e first place i did try my best and after i did try my best did i ever regret? actually i didnt cause wat i could do is already done.. and wat i could help is also done with my best efforts without fail.. so far i did let ppl downs but have i not done my part and pull ppl ups again? yes i did.. with e advise e words and e downs times i suffer.. and now .. i am happy with my past and now .. and for my future .. nothing is really impt .. but is e simple future which i am searching for all along.. hope one fine day i will be able to find it one day.. THE SIMPLES LIFES WITH A SIMPLES HAPPINESS.. treasure wat i have now .. :) is nv easy to makes a differents but it is totally impossible if u didnt even give it a try at all. so stand up on ur feets and walk ons.. no matter wat u face .. u are still going to get over it eventurally and turn back and smiles it all over again.. :)

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A days of rotting at home ! super sians! ehhs.. got contact over a long lost didnt chat before friend!! :) hahas.. lols.. been so long since i last blogged .. ehhs.. how's life for me recently? it been quite a meaning month or weeks since i last blogged bahs.. got through 2 interviews from "vision".. one is retail assitant and e other one is event coordinator.. hahas..guess wat .. my aims is to get e event coordinator which i am graving for .. or not i will have to dig e retail assitant and go back to e retail line again.. :) ytd was e news come from "vision" hahas.. i cant imagine . both side actually wanna give me a chance .. hahas.. :) at first i was losing hope actually . but in e end e agent told me tat both side also want me and we talked and made a decision on taking up e jobs on event coordinator. more challeging one and a more better future ahead bahs.. :) i jus cant wait to start works soon! cause i am almost rotting since 150109 liao. :) todays i come across this calendar .. and i found this phase so meaningful to me .. this phase goes liketat " Even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if u jus sit there, and it will become a dead end soon." sounds meaningful arhs? .. hahas.. counting down to 5 more days den will be start of my boring lifes after my "NS" .. times to go all out and try my best to grab a place in this REALISTIC world .. hahas. :) will update soon when i am free.. hopefully e next time i am going update will be another good news to be written down.. :) smiles.. rmb .. SMILES ALWAYS!! :L

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Today when to interview .. Ytd nights was a tiring nights .. sitting down with jiande at mac looking and looking for jobs and information on things useful for today's interview. but in the end wat did i get was all e disencouragement by my family.. what e point when i am willing to go for an extra miles is my life and i knows wat to do with it. hais. :( forget i got nothing more to state about wat has already happen which makes me feel really really down even i did perform well.. hais.. traveling there was like someone is making me through a test a tougher test which is more den the interview. at first travel till there den was looking around with jiande along . lucky he is there to pei me or not i will be lose alone . hais.. cant find the bus stop as state and calling around and what i get was a loads of information which doesnt have any links at all.. till i called e person myself in e end and ask and get e information myself.. hais. :( so sorry to jiande cause he when around with me and become so wet dat he still helped me to carry my stuff and ensure tat is still dry .. seeing him liketat makes me more wanting to do things on my own and settle it without getting anyone help and anyway i didnt get any help den e only help by him and how we got our ways there was like a miracle .. ya i was late .. hais.. after so much preparation .. hais.. :( everythings was like gone to waste and lose in e faith tat i will be able to get e jobs even i did well in e interview .. hais.. so wat . whatever i do .. ppls tends to kick me back into e hole where i belong not letting me walk out again.. what bigs things has i do wrong since i entering ns and finish it .. all e burdens are handle by myself.. but haiss.. being thoughtful is wrong .. ppl makes my confidence drop to negative den zero.. all along wat i get was all those hurting words.. wherever i am . dun go listen dun go think. but what do u think ? some of u also need support in lifes when diffcults stands in e way .. but intended more worse things has become for me .. everyone seem like making me feel so much lowdown den willing to go ahead ... if i am tat bad den why should u all care and why should i care ? i am really very very down and moody today . but thanks alot to jiande .. all along he didnt complain anything and didnt even stop giving me encourage till e end .. even aftertat he still encourage me all e way and keep on cracking jokes to make me laugh and smiles.. brothers u really was there for me when i needed , thansk so much.. wat u did and shown me today i will rmb it for life? rmb wat did we says mahs? let achieve and dun ever let anyone in this DISPRESENT WORLD get over u or me .. ppl says friends and only friends .. when u faces trouble familys are e only one.. which wat happen today it has proven to me tat i totally lost my faith in this family of my's and pls dun regret or say anything when u come across my blog cause i need nothing from u all from now onwards!!! i will survive myself and will be more independants to myself rather to choose my owns lifes den always let u all do things and got chances to say me .. not now anymore and no more in e future too.. :( hais.

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Blogs HAS RuST liao.. :)

So many days since i last posted my daily stuff.

Lifes for me is still e same afterall. hais.. nothing much changes.. times are being used to work, rot and slacking.. wat am i doing sial.. hais.. i also dun know leis. But jus got a good news recently . i am going for interview on monday.. hopefully able to get in this jobs cause its wat i am looking for all along. will try my best to work hard in it.. at e sametime i am waiting for the school callups hais.. but till now no news.. i wanna study also so hard.. hais.. really very stupid last time .. play and play till ruin my lifes so much .. its really affect so hard on my currently life and route ahead.. thanks gods. tat i am still able to walk back and start all over again.. it may be hard and fulls of ups and downs . but i am really willing to face it .. :) may in terms seem like i am strong but actually i am weaken by e times tat keep going without stopping . hais.. ppl outside when chances has appear pls keep it in goods use if its gone it will not be easy to get back e chances tat is able to change ur lifes. For me in lifes i jus wan a simple life and a regular work. settle down and take care of my family.. its doesnt seem to be easy by saying.. but inside i am really willing jus tat i really lose right now with my current lifes who doesnt wan a good lifes. and also i have faced so much before . till now i still haven really found my direction in lifes. and wat i am going to do . even my study is soon not going to be able . but i have to walk ons and dun gives out . cause i know everyones wants me to change for e better . but i am really trying even obstacles has come out .. but i have been liketat going through wat i mus learn for myself. i have seen not much but is more den enough for me le.. i jus wan a HAPPY AND SIMPLES LIFES FOR MYSELF!!! :(